Love's Loss

I’m never going to say a word....

Of what’s burning inside of me,

Just carry on, as if all’s fine

As if life is one big puppet show

Being pulled this way and that

By strings of unseen forces;

Unknown emotions.

Hadn’t wanted to love you,

Never want to lose you

Why??? Why did I had to

Fall for you of all?

Factions of my body constantly

Warring o’er this – my heart & head

Time and again, I feel alone

No one to listen to my silent sobs...

The green eyed monster rears up his head

Tongue darting, teeth baring, stifling me

Learnt to endure him now....

Making me feel helpless

Just like a newborn babe.

I want to listen to my mind

But am scared...very much so...

Don’t want my heart, broken & bleeding

I bottle up my feelings;

Disguise them with other emotions

Care, friendship, trust and the like..

What do I do?? Wait for it to pass??

But, WILL it??

Deep within me, I know

I would love you from afar

Keeping the smile on my face

However hard it becomes to...

Love’s a double edged sword

Sharp enough to draw blood

Strong enough to defend loved ones

At times, bringing hurt and havoc

At times, bringing care and peace

Till eternity, my love would remain

Never will I say goodbye

To you, my dear.......

I’m holding on... with a love

Strong enough , to make me or break me

But no, I would keep it all inside

Wouldn’t want anyone to know

I’m walking on a gossamer thin thread

And there’s nothing... none at all

To break my fall.