If u ask me, HOGWASH!!!!!

Is THIS what I would describe as falling in Love??? I don't think so... Infatuation, maybe....
All the rest is HOGWASH...!!!!!

Relations

I came into this world alone
Upon my birth, I made
Many great relations....
Some lasting, others fading.

With my father – To whom
I am the apple of the eye
Who works hard so that
I needn’t suffer in future
Scolds me because he has
Just my best interests at heart.

With my mother – To whom
I am more precious than
Anything else in this world...
Who became my first friend,
My confidant about my first crush;
And till date remains so –
My bestest friend.
It was her heart that bled
When I scraped my knee
Or when my heart broke..

Then as I grew older
I made many new bonds
Made many great friends
Some closer to my heart,
Some became the best of them all..

Is blood thicker than water??
There have been times when
I have felt so.. Relations do last,
Some just till the newness persists,
Some just out of the necessity of it,
And some others, out of sheer loneliness...
Only very few will be there,
When the need for ’em is greatest..
When I am weak & hurt & alone....

Those that survive the test –
The test by the fire of friendship & trust
Became the ones whom I
Hold close to my heart
Those invaluable jewels who give
As good and better as they receive
Who are strong when I’m weak,
Who turn to me, when they are alone.
Trust should be gained
And once gained should ne’er be broken.

Then suddenly, out of the blue
It hit me one day
I was drifting away from
My mother – my one true great friend..
The one who always stood by me...
Who showed me the path
That was the day I swore to myself...
To embrace all her facets
To keep my time with her sacrosanct..

I came into this world all alone
Made some true relations
Both blood and heart
Hope I made a difference
In all my relations
Before the day comes when I too,
Leave this world to another, all ALONE.

Love's Loss

I’m never going to say a word....

Of what’s burning inside of me,

Just carry on, as if all’s fine

As if life is one big puppet show

Being pulled this way and that

By strings of unseen forces;

Unknown emotions.

Hadn’t wanted to love you,

Never want to lose you

Why??? Why did I had to

Fall for you of all?

Factions of my body constantly

Warring o’er this – my heart & head

Time and again, I feel alone

No one to listen to my silent sobs...

The green eyed monster rears up his head

Tongue darting, teeth baring, stifling me

Learnt to endure him now....

Making me feel helpless

Just like a newborn babe.

I want to listen to my mind

But am scared...very much so...

Don’t want my heart, broken & bleeding

I bottle up my feelings;

Disguise them with other emotions

Care, friendship, trust and the like..

What do I do?? Wait for it to pass??

But, WILL it??

Deep within me, I know

I would love you from afar

Keeping the smile on my face

However hard it becomes to...

Love’s a double edged sword

Sharp enough to draw blood

Strong enough to defend loved ones

At times, bringing hurt and havoc

At times, bringing care and peace

Till eternity, my love would remain

Never will I say goodbye

To you, my dear.......

I’m holding on... with a love

Strong enough , to make me or break me

But no, I would keep it all inside

Wouldn’t want anyone to know

I’m walking on a gossamer thin thread

And there’s nothing... none at all

To break my fall.

Love Letter Technically....

To the one who makes my heart do flipflops,

The first time my visual detectors spotted you in their range , my sensors responded that you were someone of my same frequency.....someone whose highly electrophilic nature and my nucleophilic nature was sure to create sparks ; whether they were destructive or constructive I had no idea...... Initially I thought that we were destined to be parallel paths but now my transducer wants them to intersect. You are just like a 100 watt incandescent lamp bulb whose presence lightens up my entire day. Every time you come in my field of vision , my heart starts racing like a 6- stroke engine powered by extra premium petrol fuel. Sometimes the control rod of my mind feels that you are the torque which helps the centrifugal pump of my heart ,beat with double the horsepower. Do not think that my love for you is like a sine wave. I assure you that it is congruent to a tan wave.

Your eyes...... those dark brown orbs with whose laser like intensity you magnetise and demagnetize me repeatedly, I feel I am undergoing hysteresis loops. I know that you are a high flying Concorde and that you’ll take a long time to land. But I believe I can attain Mach 3 speeds along with you. I swear, you are the best heart surgeon in the world , even though you are studying engineering..... because you made a place in my entire heart without any drilling machine or scalpels..... without even shedding an ounce of the viscous fluid blood. The very thought of you ignites my mind and short circuits its wiring systems. Loving you is a risk which has the probability of being blown away by an electric shock when testing a circuitry without insulation. But that is a risk my logical systems has to take .... for the sake of my illogical systems’ satisfaction. My love for you is as pure as 24 carat gold.

As with any couple there will be many undulations in our universe also but I am confident that we will level them as we have very strong and deep pile foundation in our friendship and concrete bonding. There will be many resistances to our bonding but with you as my pair, I have the energy to transform them into conductances just like the inverse function.

The reactions going on in my head were reaching critical temperatures , so I decided my undying love for you had to be proclaimed rather than letting it consume me in its highly spontaneous and exothermic reactions. I have realized that you are the core around which the search coils of my circuits were wound and that your response will trip my life forever.

Being a resistor or a conductor to my move is all upto you , but that wouldn’t change my graph at all. Please integrate my love for you by applying limits from 0 to infinity. I am just like ex which remains unchanged whether differentiation or integration comes along.

Without you , I’m like a rectifier without diode . You are as essential to me as fuel to an engine ; as a king post truss to the castle of my 3-D imagery. Please don’t let my heart remain unresolved for as long as Permat ‘s theorem.

I LOVE YOU , my source of imagination, my inspiration ........... my dear dearest !!!!!!!


Till the fuel of my life ebbs away from me ,

Forever and ever yours