Life With My Friend....!

Life feels so much better and beautiful when he is around...

Colours seem so much brighter and lighter when he is around to point out the sights...

The senses respond much more actively during the times they sense his presence nearby...

Burden on my shoulders feel bearable and very insignificant when he is there to share them...

The obstacles along the path look minuscule if he is there to catch me when I stumble...

Laughter seem so much natural and less pasted upon when it’s something he does to cheer me up...

Time stands still when it is him who keeps me company...

I find myself being me... no burdens of expectations, no recriminations, no feeling guilty, no apologising for who I am... whatsoever when I am with him...

Does this mean I love him?? I don’t know... All I know is that I love the freedom being with him brings me... Before others I am but a shadow of myself nowadays – withdrawn, aloof, locking away a part of myself without anyone being none the wiser. Am I completely the opposite with him? No.. but I am less like the shadow and more me, when I am with him. He has helped me free a part of myself which I had always kept controlled within me... A part of myself which scared me... He gave me a shot at freedom. Who is HE?? He is my friend. The friend who I will miss much more than myself...

There are times when I wonder why I’m making this difficult for myself. Would it be better if I alienate myself from everything and everyone? With no memories whatsoever to miss when I look back? My befuddled brain thinks that at times... The optimist in me refuses to accept that. It wants to stock up on the memories to last for a lifetime. Live life like there is no tomorrow, it says. Which would be better? Gosh!! Life is as complicated as you make it to be...